You may have noticed my near silence this week. You may have also noticed a post I published and quickly unpublished earlier this week titled "A Post Where I Complain and Feel Sorry for Myself," in which I did exactly that. You may have also noticed that you could click on it and read it in full on Bloglovin' because even though I unpublished it here, I didn't think to delete it there. It's gone now, but it was available a full 24 hours.
The reason I unpublished it is because I try really, really hard for this to be a positive space. I'm not always successful in that, because dammit sometimes you just want to complain and have someone say "I hear you." I put it all out there in that post and even now I'm considering republishing it, regardless of how negative and angry and ungrateful the whole thing sounded, because that's life. Sometimes you have really negative, angry, ungrateful days and I don't think that my personal space on the internet should be wiped clean of that reality.
I don't have the energy to pretend here.
I've had a rough week, as if you couldn't tell by that post and everything above. Because of that, I stopped reading blogs as much and definitely haven't been posting. I stepped away from consuming so much social media and news (although I do admit Tweeting a few times) and it was a breath of fresh air to take a step back and not have a million and one people shouting so much information and so many opinions at me from a screen. I feel as though my mind has been more quiet and I think that's exactly what I needed. I still need more, too, so I almost didn't even show up here today.
The good thing about turning off the sound of the internet is that my mind has been allowed to wander. The book I'm writing has been coming more and more together in my head, something that can't happen with the constant intake of mindless information the internet provides. I've been able to sit in the quiet and truly think about life and goals and how I'm really feeling right now. It has been refreshing. I recommend everyone give it a try sometime.
On the complete opposite spectrum of quiet, I give you the only bit of a roundup I'm doing this week, because computer-free time can always go for a little music: